I’ve sunk into a bit of a depression low yet again. It’d be great if I could find a way to just get rid of it. I am on medication and I think that has made a bit of a difference to how low I can sink. I managed to get a load of clothes washed, hung out and brought back in, made a decent healthy meal and got a load of dishes washed today, which would not of happened if I weren’t on any meds. I would have just laid down and gazed off into oblivion all day. Still, it’s a real drain and super annoying. I wish I could just function like a normal human and be as productive as my spirit wants to be. There is so many things I want to do but can’t because the depression just saps all of my energy. I think self-esteem issues and self-acceptance lay at the heart of what’s causing it, but I have no idea how to verify that and regain them if possible without spending money I don’t have on counsellors etc.. That’s all for now, hope everyone had a bit more cheery day than me.
Day of Depression25 02 2014